Thursday, April 7, 2016

Hello

It's me.
I was wondering if after all these years you'd like to meet.

Thanks Adele.

Well, it has a been a few years since I wrote anything on this blog. So, what happened? Life, that's what happened. Between the loss of my father and the collapse of my marriage, I basically lost my sense of happily ever after. As a reader, I don't always want to read a book that is too much like real life- boring or depressing. Chick lit is an escape. We want to curl up with a book and make believe that we are curling up with the hunk, the romantic, or the charming man between the pages of that book. So what do you do when you lose the idea of Prince Charming? Well, if you are a normal adult woman, you simply move on with your life and find a great guy to settle down with. But if you're a writer, you sit and stare in excruciating sadness because you just can't seem to get back what you've lost.
I have ideas and I have hope. What I am lacking is the words. Nothing I write seems to capture what's in my head. I am now full of doubt. I go back through each sentence and critique it. I over analyze every move I make for my characters. I worry about more negative reviews. (Yes, I read the reviews. Yes, I stress out about the negative reviews. Yes, I know I shouldn't do that.)
I wish that I could submit this blog entry to announce that I have a new book being published soon. I wish that I was writing to tell you that my new book is coming along well. Unfortunately, I am only writing to tell you that I want to write, I hope to write, and I will write...just not yet.